Aww. Vacation's over.
Only three more weeks, though!! I can handle three more.

So I decided not to come back to IUP next semester. I'm going to work, save up some money, maybe take a few classes at BC3, and go to a culinary school next fall. What I'm doing now is pointless to me and I don't want to waste any more time and money going to school for something that I really don't want to do.
Most people can seem to comprehend this concept...
Except my darling brother. He found out I was going to be home next semester, and posted the following on his Facebook:

"Is it because I'm a failure in ur eyes
That you can't even hear my cries?
Or are you simply blinded by
The lies of the one you hold so high?
It's no surprise that I refuse to try
When your precious princess is sucking you dry
You give her every little thing that she asks
Yet providing for me is such a task
And you buy her excuses, since she can do no wrong
And I'm still the failure when I lasted twice as long
When you look down I'm all you can see
Am I blocking your view while she hides below me?
I never tried to be perfect for you
But you can never say that I wasn't true
If you could only see past the lies she provides
You'd understand the anger I've attempted to hide
I can't take anymore of this hypocrisy
Or this manipulative bitch you hold high above me
It's amusing to see what she's done to your minds
When you read this you'll treat it like a federal crime
I'm just being honest like I've always done
Your precious little angel is not a perfect one
If you only could hear what she's said about you
Would you just shrug it off, or maybe change your view?
Either way you look at it, I'll at least always know
That I'm the bigger person by letting the truth show
And by the choice of never living a life full of lies
I'll always be a failure in your hypocritical eyes"

And his girlfriend's response.

"Truth will always shine in the dark... Kinda random but makes sense. I abslotuly love the way u put this babe"

...Really? I don't even know how to properly react to this. I've changed my college plans, and now I'm a "manipulative bitch"? I'm really not sure how I'm lying to anyone. I also don't understand how the way my parents treat him is my fault. Only way I can figure is when I sent that e-mail of stuff that his girlfriend said about my parents to my father. But then, who is "letting the truth show" in this situation. Hmm?

Stupid fuckin' Hank. I want Aaron back, not this douchebag who can't accept responsibility for anything. Not this asshole who treats everyone around him like shit, except for the girl he gets to fuck. And if Hank is here to stay, then I want him and his girlfriend to pack up and get the fuck out of my life, because I'm not related to, nor do I care about any "Hank".

He'll probably read this, too. Hell, he made an account on here just to comment on ARC's journals, and he made a Gaia account so he could spy on what I posted there.

I know I'm not perfect. I never claimed to be. I used to think I had nice fingernails, but, other than that, I've acknowledged that I'm a fucked up little girl who's pretty much worthless to the real world. I haven't had a good relationship with my parents in a long time, and I've been working my ass off to get one. Now I'm making decisions about my future. What's so wrong about that? It has nothing to do with him or his girlfriend or his friends (Which I've been chastised for. "Get your own friends!!" and all that.) Why does he feel the need to tear me down?
Home was starting to feel like home for the first time in years.
Now I feel like it's a fight for who gets to be happy today, and so far I'm losing.

This is really just a rant. I'm not trying to make anyone angry with anyone else or have anyone treat me like I'm a victim. I'm really not. I'm just a frustrated, upset little girl who needed a chance to bitch and vent.
And I did.
And now it's over and we can move on with our lives.

Well, I have about 6 papers to write tonight, so that's all for me today.
<3